I wish I wasn't this strong. Or rather that I didn't pretend or try to be strong. I wish I could let myself ask for help when I need it, admit need when I have it. It's like I'm constantly trying to prove myself. Prove to others. That I can deal with things, that I don't need anything or anyone. The only consolation I have is that in this particular situation it's truly for the best. I do need you, but I would be shooting myself in the foot.